I'm back. I was in the hospital.

[comicpisces11]

Quirky -girl- what?! Look, you don't know me...I'm kinda new here...but I am originally from Ventura (so I know all about it), live in L.A. now (only 45 minutes away) and have read just about every self-help/spiritual book on the planet. Why? Hmm, a little thing called DEPRESSION! I'm also a stand up comic which is a way I deal with the problem.. You're not alone. If you'd like or feel comfortable, PM me...we can talk moms. We can also talk about all the fun you are going to have living here in Cali! You've just got to find your purpose. When you do, Cali is the place to manifest that purpose. Anywho, PM me if you'd like. I would love to talk to you.

[JT Carrey]

Quirky no! Stop that, you don't need to be hurting yourself like that, I'm glad that you didn't succeed with it, we've all missed you and I'm glad to see you back. Don't leave us girl!

[carreyd away]

What JT said...

If you don't think you can handle the stress of caring for your Mom, it's OK to say so. Not everyone is capable of caring for a loved one. Just because you once acted as a nurse, doesn't mean you have to continue. It's very different caring for a loved one than a stranger. You can detach yourself from strangers, it's not so easy to think impartially for a parent. It doesn't mean you're a bad daughter, just a human with emotional limits. Don't take on more than you can handle in your fragile state.

[carreypunkrawker]

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[thecablegal]

I'm sorry but that is insulting, because it is sick. Do you not think you should seek help? I mean, for God sake, you are here, so why not make the most of it.

We are all concerned about Quirky, and you have come on here to tell us that bascially, we shouldn't care so much!

I have been though some s*it in my life, some serious s*it, but I am learning that you may as well make the most of what you have. Giving up is weak...
You might have to learn the hard way, or the REALLY hard way. If your parents and siblings bother you, then don't speak to them. All I'm saying is that the way you are living your life is weak, why not stand above everyone and prove to all of them that you can do it?

I really don't think that you should be encouraging unhappy people to kill themselves. You should be encouraging them to get help...

[Filomena]

It's weird how I still care a lot and love others

If you can still love others, then you can't hate yourself that much. I think it's impossible that you care for people, but you can't muster any emotion for yourself.

If you keep trying to kill yourself, but you don't succeed, you don't really want to die. Nobody wants to die. You're just so unhappy you can't think of anything else to do to change your life. So suicide is the only solution.

Nobody has to tell you that you need help. You know you need help. It's up to you to want to change your life around.

But first you have to get rid of your anger. If you don't get rid of your anger, it's not going to happen.

[JT Carrey]

yea Peggy, you should stop that, you know people love you and want you alive.. change your life, don't expect others to change it for you

[cableclair]

Quirky, please please please I beg you not to attempt that again. Your brother probably reacted the way he did because he was in TOTAL dispair. You will always be missed quirky, always. Might be hard to realise now, but you don't wanna miss out on all the FUN and fantastic GOOD stuff that's still coming up in your life. Would be a waste to miss out on that, out of fear, right? It's like a little suprise party, it's all dark and spooky at times but then BLAM all the lights go on and it's all smiley faces and fun all along. Trust me.
And you're clearly not meant to go yet, not your time, else you would have succeeded and you didn't, so there. Same counts for you Peggy, you're needed and wanted in this world. It's gonna be good, you can make it happen. There is no easy way out, no shortcut. I'm thankful you're still here.

[fluffy]

perhaps they are waiting for that one sign..........that wake-up call that suddenly gives their lives meaning...........and therefore a reason for being...............
my only advice would be to make sure your eyes are opened to such things..........it's easy to be so absorbed in your own misery you lose sight of the joy of living and love...........

i'll admit i've not been in that situation but i have had that life changing experience.....(and no it's nothing to do with god!!!)..........and believe me nothing is worth going down the suicide route..........

Depression is an illness as credible as diabetes.........people shouldn't be afraid to seek help.....i hope you have all the help you need...

fluffy

[cotton]

Quirky I am glad you are still with us. I hope you are doing a lot better now. I hope you have lots of happiness and you too Peggy. You shouldn't harm yourself like that.

[carreypunkrawker]

I know. I'm sorry. I won't say anymore. Sorry Quirky. Hope things get better with you. Best of luck.

[wonderbunny]

I am too, a suicide survivor. When I was 22, I took an overdose of sleeping pills; in hindsight I thank God my stomach was pumped and I survived. I've spent the last 20 years helping people with mental illness, depressions,addiction and suicide prevention. I discovered I had a disorder that resulted from an infection from a camping trip (Encephalitis - swelling of the brain tissue) Doctors said I was Bipolar. I have been given so many medications for so many diagnosis' and I've spent a lot of time in Hospitals. Don't get discouraged. For me, the medications were the problem. I actually became suicidal from the antidepressans Paxil, doesn't make sense does it? That's what I thought. My family and my doctors insisted on medication resulting in a healthcare nightmare. I finally found medical research to back me up. Many of the diagtosis' are now found to be environmentally caused. I can now live a life without medications and I am loving my life. However, now when ever I laugh, and I do it alot; my family thinks I'm mentally ill and need to see a doctor. I have to be very careful, and only laugh when thy are looking. I realized. Its my family that has the problem, and not me! I need to look at my life, my environment and what was causing me to be so depressed. I also had to realize, bear with me on this one, Satan is a spirit (Like smoke) and he roams the earth to seek tender souls to destroy by suicide making them feel unloved and unworthy of happiness. People turn to desparate measures like alcohol, drugs, suicide, medications and quick lusty romances to fill he void. All you need is love, Jesus and some private time reading the Bible. The Holy Ghost is a bigger Spirit and can heal all wounds if you give it a try. It may take a few days or even weeks of solitary mending of you wounded heart, but I guarantee you'll feel better; Its what He (God) and Jesus is there for. He doesn't want any of his children to be in that kind of pain. God Bless You Quirky. Baby steps, we all get hopeless sometimes and its normal. We just get so wrapped up in the pain we forget how loved we are in his eyes. You strength through this difficult time will be an asset later in you life. You will become the gentle, tender hearted person God made you to be; You just have to know what your dealing with. Its a spirit, not a person that is breaking you heart. Start with Psalm 51, and a great Jim Carrey Movie like Bruce Almighty and go from there. Its the darndest thing I've ever seen. Redemption. Love the wonderbunny!

[amanda]

I never have depression.

[mav]

oh, quirky, this is anger-making. Yes, I suppose you only have you now. Be at your cousin's, you may take more time to get over this than others because you love sincerely and it hurts more deeply. You are disconsolate and angry, it's sheer injustice...a homeless shelter...i cannot believe it! Instead of a shoulder and a hug, you get a stone wall. Life can be cruel.
You are medically stable .... but now emotionally wrecked.
Let it heal. I'll pray for love and peace. Hugs,
-mav
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[Conor]

umm....i know this isnt really an appropriate question and dont answer if if you dont want to but how did you try>